When I first sat down to put this blog together with everything that has come pouring out of my heart, I did not see the road ahead very clearly. All of the prayer and meditation I have put into this did not allow me to see how it would unfold and I am beginning to understand why.
I have already been astounded at the connections that have been made and the people that have been brought into my bubble as a result of this endeavor. There are a couple of folks I couldn’t part with easily, because my heart was drawn to theirs out of love. I rejoice in that, because that was what my heart set out to do; to reach those who needed a hand to hold.
What has surprised me the most, however, was the hostility I encountered after I wrote ‘Prophecy for Prophesy’. I am not a scholar and I have not set out to be an ‘expert’ on anything other than my own personal relationship with Elohim and where my heart stands with Him. I am studying scripture, taking a class on the Torah, learning Hebrew, grasping at a better understanding of Jewish culture, learning about Biblical history, and tapping into doctrine; all out of a desire to know Who my Lord is.
Apparently, I touched some nerves and stepped on some toes by expressing and exposing my heart.
I have been called a lot of things in my life and I have had accusations tossed in my general direction, especially by the people in my life who should know better. We all know how that goes and this isn’t about that. I wiped the dust off of my feet about whether or not they have any judgments to toss my way. God has made it very clear to me what He knows about my life and that’s where my confidence stands. God does not need to prove Himself to me, because He is the One who has been at my side all along. I will not continue to test Him here. I am walking on hallowed ground with tremendous fear and trembling.
However, I have a very heavy heart tonight and my conversations with Elohim have gotten intense. I was not prepared for the fallout when I dared to discuss the need for spiritual maturity when it comes to prophecy and prophesying.
Do you know how difficult it is to stand there and turn the other cheek while people are hurling giant mud balls with shards of glass directly at your face? Do you know how difficult it is to stand strong in the Lord with an attitude of love while people are lunging their daggers into your heart?
Do you know how hard it is to turn the other cheek when other believers are the ones throwing the mud balls and lunging with their daggers?
I have watched believers tear each other down on social media, in forums, and from various platforms over doctrine, theology, and this election process. I have also watched those who profess the Love of the Lord tear down unbelievers for all of those same reasons.
I have to admit, I am sick to my stomach over it and I would be remiss not to address it. I cannot help but think we need to collectively get a large dose of Matthew 7:21-23 and get serious about it:
“Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’
I don’t know about you, but that is the ONLY dagger to my heart that concerns me and the faith walk I am on with my Lord and Savior, the Lamb of God.
There are believers across the globe right this very second with a sword at their neck. Do we honestly understand this? Do we comprehend the magnitude of it? There are even children being persecuted in unspeakable ways because of Yeshua HaMaschiah. I wonder how difficult it is for THEM to turn the other cheek right now or if they will even get that choice.
Whether or not any of those with a sword at the neck will be alive by the time I hit the ‘publish’ button on this, I do not know. My heart grieves and weeps over what is happening out there while I am sitting here, in my house, with the freedom to do as I please. And, what I please to do is to serve my Lord and Savior with all of my heart and soul. I am in LOVE with HIM! My love and passion for Him is what drives my love and passion for others, even when they are hurling vicious insults without refrain.
So, you know what? I can take the mud balls and I can take the daggers. I am clinging to Isaiah 41:10:
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
I am accountable to JEHOVAH SABAOTH: LORD of Hosts for every single aspect of who I am and what I do. I do not take any of this lightly.
I am crying out Job 13:15 from my heart and soul:
Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him; I will surely defend my ways to his face.
I live my life day in and day out asking for and inviting the conviction of the Holy Spirit into my life because, someday, I am going to give an account to my Father in Heaven. I will stand in the presence of The Lamb, the one Who sacrificed Himself for me, while I give my account. This has my heart twisted and contorted to change in ways that are above and beyond my own strength.
I do not ever want to hear Him say to me, “Depart from Me, I never knew you!”
That is where my heart is and that is my driving force.
If loving the Lord with all of my heart and all of my soul and all of my mind is wrong in the eyes of man, then I do not want to be right!
(You’re welcome for that ear worm, by the way).
Thank You for guidance and direction when guidance and direction is needed. Thank You for being the Fire that changes hearts and minds so that Your glory will be revealed before all men. I invite the conviction of the Holy Spirit to CONSUME me so that my passion for You never fades or withers into ashes that will be swept away.
May You uphold those under direct persecution and the immediate threat of danger with Your Righteious Right Hand. They are in dire need of a HERO.