Discovery in the flaws…

After much work editing and formatting, I looked over the proof copy that arrived. I wasn’t sure what I would discover, but I didn’t expect to see all of the flaws and imperfections. There were stray commas peppered on the pages, spacing didn’t seem to be aligned, and words missing started jumping out at me. How could that be? Did I not investigate for hours on end to ensure it would all be ‘just right’?

That sensation of defeat and discouragement was starting to slither along beside me with accusations aimed to silence me or convince me to give up and fill my mind with doubt. I felt prepared to start replacing copies, feeling as if those tiny flaws and imperfections were magnifying the flaws and imperfections of my life. I suppose if we hold a magnifying glass to ourselves and each other, we will discover all of the faults we seek to find.

Don’t we do that? We search one another or ourselves, hoping to discover something that doesn’t measure up, as if we were going to win an award for it. We are a people who seek to please the eyes and the senses in all kinds of ways. We are drawn to bright, shiny objects and easily distracted by the seemingly perfect image. We crave the new and tend to toss out the old and out-dated.

People often announce themselves or introduce themselves based on their titles and talents, usually with a perfectly designed representation in order to impress and attract others (Look over here, I am, I am, I am, I am, I am…).

I began to think about a baby born in a manger.

There once was a King who was born into the most humble of circumstances. Upon birth, this King was surrounded with the stench of a barn and in the company of the barn residents. His parents were surrounded by controversy and scrutiny, though they held fast to their faith. That same King was laid in a manger after His birth. He did not live in luxury with the finest garments and servants to tend to every need. He didn’t have great beauty, the finest of things, or exalt Himself during His ministry. He was not concerned with posing for the perfect picture or carefully curating His speeches. He was not interested in impressing and attracting others with adornments or titles. He was a man of modest means.

Isaiah 53:2

He grew up before him like a tender shoot, and like a root out of dry ground. He had no beauty or majesty to attract us to him, nothing in his appearance that we should desire him.

No, the King was not worried about the outward, how things looked, or whether or not anyone would find fault in Him. This King was the One who came to serve, minister compassion, and walk in humility. He rode into town on a donkey and walked out with splintered wood on His shoulders.

This King was beaten, whipped, and bruised though He had done nothing wrong. This innocent King was forced to carry the splintered wood that would become His deathbed. For all intents and purposes, His life from birth until death is one of lowly circumstances and profound levels of humility.

The Great I AM gave up His throne, His lofty position, in order to reconcile us to Himself.

So, as I made the changes to the flaws and imperfections that were within my control, I decided I was going to let the rest go. A revision was made and I walked away from it praying that the will of God would play out no matter what. Whatever ambitions and goals I may have for myself do not matter in the least if the will of God is not involved. Nothing apart from Him is going to last.

I was drawn back to why I am even sharing my journey in the first place and it has nothing to do with an image, a title, the need for recognition, or even an attempt to walk in false humility.

The truth is, I fell in love with the baby in a manger, the King who carried my cross and allowed Himself to be nailed there. I fell in love with a humble Servant, not because He was lofty or pleased the senses. I fell in love with a humble Servant because of His great love for us.

1 John 4:19

We love because He first loved us.

I am not interested in perfection or an image. I have had some impressive titles in my day and, in the big picture, those titles means nothing. I have already learned some hard lessons of how things go apart from Him; when I seek my own will or chase after a call on my life that was not actually ordained by Him I will walk into ruin.

In the midst of all the flaws and imperfections, I made the most beautiful discovery…

I am in my Lord and He is the I AM in me.


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40 thoughts on “Discovery in the flaws…”

  1. Oh my, are we alike or not. I scour my articles and think I have found every single little flaw, only to find mistakes peppered all throughout a document. I think an editor would solve all of our problems.;) It’s your creative heart that is the gift dear JD. It is your ability to articulate in a way that is so unique to you. I LOVE your writing, you have a GIFT! We can’t be all things, and that is why editors provide a gift we need.

    I love how you describe the event of our Savior coming to Earth. Such a humble life, coming for one purpose, to die so we can live. He was not sidetracked by his circumstances, he came to serve.

    Beautifully written my friend, keep it up and don’t let doubt stop you. We are all imperfect beings in one way or another. Embrace it, celebrate it … That’s why we need each other. xoxo

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    1. Oh, editors would be nice. It is amazing how much work actually goes into putting something into a format for print. It is a job!!! And, I so agree we all need one another. We SO need one another!! So, here’s to our perfect imperfections!! 😀 😀

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      1. Do you know how often you make me smile? A LOT. I was just sitting here thinking about all of the comments that have been perfectly timed, all of the similarities, and all of the same passions. God bless you, my friend.


    1. Now that I am a mother, the sacrifice that was made is getting bigger and bigger to my perception. I don’t know how Mary did it. I don’t know how God did it. And, I don’t know how a humble man was able to fight through terror of all that was about to happen to Him in order to accomplish our redemption. That is LOVE. No greater love will we ever know or comprehend. Merry Christmas to you and your family, Rick!! God bless you!

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  2. Thank you for sharing your experience with writing. Anyone who writes will be faced with critiques and corrections, some we may not agree with. Faced with a review that tore apart one of my books (edited and formatted well) gave me a leg up on publishing. Getting through that, remembering that Jesus was crucified because others could not agree with or accept His work, has given me a new perspective. To go on, and fulfill our calling in our service to Him, no matter the correction from others is humbling and healing at the same time. I have learned to accept, to listen, and discern between what is needful to change and what is not to be changed because it is His work in us. Continue to please Him, and pray for His guidance in all things.
    Blessing as you serve our gracious and humble Lord. ~ Fran

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  3. Away in a Manger and all the little nativity scenes make it looks so neat and pretty, but imagine if you will… cow gas in your face while your husband is screaming ‘breathe breathe!’ Tell your critic to take a seat and think about that for a while.
    You wrote an incredibly brave and well written and well edited book. Be still and let it be what it is.

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  4. I seem to have dealt with all of the same struggles as you…
    PTSD, post partum depression 3 times. Suicide attempts and was saved only by God… I too should not have survived. I have severe Bipolar Disorder as well. I just can relate to everything you write but you just have such a beautiful gift of being able to convey your thoughts and words so beautifully into written form. I love reading your blog!!! You are awesome!!!

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  5. So True Shattered in Him, we can never measure up to the Worlds idea of perfection, it keeps changing but we are to aim to be Perfected in Love as God tells us to do and which Paul explains about in the Scriptures and we are wise not to reject them as some do and trust in their own or others understanding when they contradict God’s Truth or when they give half Truths that lead to confusion.

    But as you shared when it comes to weaknesses and shortcomings, we are not to judge others we have enough of our own but as we Aim to be Perfected in Love which is Spiritual not physical (Matthew 5:48 – Hebrews 6:1-Philippians 3:14-16 -2Timothy 3:17-1John 4:16-19- 1John 2:4-6- 2Corinthians 13:11) we put our Carnal flesh to death by The Spirit.( Romans 8 :12-15- Romans 6 – Colossians 3:4-6 -Galatians 5:24 -26) then being perfected in Love, we walk as Jesus did in Love and Righteousness. (1John3:6-7- 2 Corinthians7:1)

    Matthew 5:48 Be ye therefore Perfect, even as your Father which is in Heaven is Perfect.

    Hebrews 6:1 Therefore leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto Perfection; not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works and of faith toward God,

    2 Corinthians 7:1 Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting Holiness in the fear of God.

    2 Timothy 3:16-17 All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in Righteousness: That the man/woman of God may be Perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works.

    1John 4:17-19 Herein is our Love made Perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment: because as He is, so are we in this world. There is no fear in Love; but Perfect Love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made Perfect in Love. We Love Him, because He first Loved us.

    2Corinthians 13:11 Finally, brethren, farewell. Be Perfect, be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in Peace; and the God of Love and Peace shall be with you.

    Christian Love Always – Anne.

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